A Moment of Transparency

One big thing I pride myself on in this journey to a healthier lifestyle is honesty. It doesn’t always come easily {what girl do you know WILLINGLY wants to share her weight with dozens of people she may or may not know?!}, but after my BL experience last summer, I realized it is necessary/a necessary evil! You canNOT succeed long-term in changing your life if you can’t be honest about the issue at hand, no matter what your struggle is. So I’m honest about my weight. I talk about what works for me and what doesn’t, the stumbles and the triumphs… for the most part.

Recently, I have found myself struggling with this. And by recently, I mean in the past 2 1/2 weeks. Y’all were so supportive when I hit 207 {100 lbs lost}, and again when I posted on FB that I had finally gone under 200 just a handful of days later. It felt so good to not only hit those goals, but to know that my journey is inspiring others to also get healthy… I can’t even describe how great it feels and how much it helps me when my desire to keep going is less than enthusiastic!

The day after I hit 199.6, I was up .6 lbs… not a big deal, but frustrating. If only I had known! Over the next 11 days {so 12 days total}, I gained 10.4 lbs- WTH?!?!?!?!?! I wasn’t eating differently, I wasn’t working out less {or more}, nothing I was doing had changed, yet I couldn’t seem to stop the number from climbing daily. I felt awful, both physically and mentally, and I was afraid to say anything about it to anyone because, quite frankly, I was embarrassed and didn’t want to disappoint y’all.

Finally, I said something to my trainer. Trey is just an all-around great guy and a fantastic trainer, and I trust him completely when it comes to my health and my body {when you’ve hurt your body as much as I have- broken ankles, dislocated shoulder, torn muscles, etc.- you have to trust the people helping you or it won’t work}. He immediately wanted to know why I hadn’t said something sooner- it’s not like I didn’t know something was wrong {a little fluctuation is normal, 10+ lbs that quickly is NOT}. We decided to add an Omega 3 supplement to my diet and up my water from ~100 oz to ~132 oz a day to account for the higher temps these days.

I am ECSTATIC to report that I am down 6.2 of those lbs since Tuesday! I am also having some blood work run tomorrow to make sure there isn’t some other underlying issue going on {please, please pray that all comes back clear}, but I can honestly say that I think this ‘backslide’ was a result of two things- pressure and stress. Pressure I had placed on myself, and stress because I couldn’t seem to control what was happening on the scale. It’s easy for me to share when things are going good, but I am an expert at hiding the not so pretty things in life {well, not an expert- the 100+ lbs I’ve gotten rid of so far can attest to that}. But I think the more I inwardly panicked about this weight gain, the worse it got. I’m no doctor, but it just can’t be coincidental that it stopped THE DAY I finally said something to someone and asked for help.

So that’s my message for you today- don’t be afraid to ask for help. Hurdles will arise in life. Sometimes, you’ll find yourself going in the complete wrong direction, and that’s okay as long as you are willing to stop and ask for help so you can get right back on track. Be honest about where you are and what you’re struggling with, no matter how big or small. You’ll be amazed at how many people are willing to hold you up and help you be strong when you feel completely lost and just at your limits! Don’t be afraid of the setbacks that WILL come- look at them as opportunities to prove how much you really want it! I know I’m certainly going to appreciate it all a little bit more after these last couple of weeks 🙂

Be Healthy,



1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Breanna
    Jun 26, 2012 @ 11:45:08

    I know I’m not always the first person you want to talk to about this stuff but please know you can always always talk to me!!! Love you lots sissy, keep up the hard work 🙂


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