Put down the blanket, Linus!

As many of you have seen, I cut all my hair off yesterday! (Okay, not ALL of it, but you know what I mean…) As silly as it may seem, this was actually a big deal for me. I’ve talked about doing it for quite awhile now, but the follow-through never happened, and I’ll tell you why.

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I felt safe with my hair. I hoped I could keep people from seeing everything I thought was wrong with me and my body by distracting them with my Pantene commercial worthy hair (ok, it wasn’t that great, but I’m trying to make a point here). I could hide my arm fat with it. I thought it made my face look thinner. Honestly, it made me feel pretty… (I can keep going, but I’m trying to keep my blogs from becoming mini-novels every time I get around to posting!)

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But the point is that I was hiding! My hair was my security blanket in many ways. So when the question, “Have I lost enough weight to cut my hair?” actually came out of my mouth earlier this week, I knew it was time to say “buh-bye!” Because what I was really asking was, “Can I finally stop hiding?”

I wasn’t asking about my hair or my weight loss. The real question behind the words I spoke was about me and how I feel about myself. And let me tell you a few things I’ve realized recently- I may not be done losing weight yet. I may not be the size I want to be or as toned as I’d like. I may not be able to run as far or for as long as I think I should be capable of. I may not be a lot of things or have everything I thought I would have by the time I was 29.

But I feel good about myself! For the first time in my entire adult life, I like me. I am happy with who I am becoming. I may not love where I started, but it’s a part of me and I accept it as that. And that is a pretty amazing feeling!

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So yesterday I got rid of my security blanket- I don’t need it anymore 🙂

Hugs and Love,

A

ps- What security blankets are you holding on to? How can I help you put them aside and move forward?

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**Tell me that’s not the funniest thing- the left is my pup, Kenji, and the right is obviously my hair, but boy do they look alike! haha 😀

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