Nothing to Lose

I know I promised a blog about the Biggest Loser RunWalk 10k, but sometimes things happen and posts don’t get published… I do plan on putting it up though, but I figure now I’m just going to wait for the race photos to come in this weekend and then post it all at once. So have no fear, it will be up this weekend! Today I want to talk about something else though…

Do you ever feel like life just smacks you right in the face and then laughs at you? After an awesome start to 2013, I feel like that has been my world for the past week. I’ve felt awful (cedar fever is the worst), hurt my ankle+foot and thus have not been able to really work out, which has led to more stress than normal, been hurt by a friend, and gotten really bad news about a relative (if you are the praying type, please keep my family in your prayers- we lost my grandpa last year, so yesterday’s news has been doubly hard, I feel)… and to top it off, I got on my phone last night to update a couple of notes where I keep track of all my runs and weigh-ins only to discover that somehow in the last day or two, the note with EVERY. SINGLE. weigh-in since I started this journey in 2010 is gone. Deleted. Disappeared. Vanished. Lost into the great unknown of cyber space. Kidnapped forever by Apple.

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Aggghhhh…

I cried. I know it’s dumb, but I did. I guess it was just the proverbial “straw that broke the camel’s back”. I’ve tracked every weigh-in for almost 3 years in that note. I could look back and see exactly where I was at any given time along the way, and now it’s gone. I don’t know why I felt so devastated, but I did.

After a night of almost no sleep (not because of the missing note), I sat in the car this morning thinking about all that’s “gone wrong” in the last several days. Sure, it’s mostly minor stuff in the grand scheme of life, but when it happens all at once, it can be overwhelming… IF I choose to let it be.

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So I’m choosing to let it all go… my foot is already feeling much better than I expected- heck, I ran the 10k 22+ minutes faster than I thought I could!! I upped my allergy meds and feel slightly zombie-ish but not like I’m drowning in my own head. I’m taking the friend thing as yet another learning experience in life. The family thing is still there of course, but I’ll relying on Faith+God to handle that.

And I’m letting go off the lost iPhone note… I could probably go back into old fitness apps and at least recover some of the info, but why bother? I lost the weight and don’t want it back, so do I really need to know my exact weight from October 10, 2011 or March 26, 2012 or any other day along the way? I know how far I’ve come AND I know where I’m headed. It’s time to shake off the funk and keep moving forward!

Hugs and Love,

A

**Have you ever lost something to technology and just been crushed about it, or am I the only one?

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